There's a moment in every believer's journey where you think you heard from God… only to end up with a whole slice of humble pie and a side of confusion.

I recently found myself in that exact spot believing I had divine confirmation about an opportunity, only to watch it crumble into disappointment. And let's just say, I didn't take it like a graceful saint. No, I took it like a toddler mid-tantrum.

But let's rewind.

The Opportunity That Seemed Divine

I came across an opportunity that ticked all my boxes:

• New home
• Still close to work
• An increase in finances (we thank God in advance, right?)

Before jumping in, I actually did seek God. I prayed, asked for direction, and believed I heard Him say yes. There was even a vision I had earlier of being in a new place that this opportunity seemed to align with.

So naturally, I thought: "This must be it!" Faith activated. Plans forming. Pinterest boards? Ready. But as the days passed and the outcome neared, anxiety started creeping in (which should've been a red flag). Still, I waited. Then the day came… and went. No email. No call. Just silence. And then finally: "You were not selected."

Cue the emotional rollercoaster —anger, disappointment, tears that were way too dramatic for the occasion (but also kinda justified). I was mad at God. Like, "Why even let me believe this was it?" mad.

Flesh > Spirit (A Hard Truth)

The deeper truth? I wanted out. I was desperate for a new beginning.
Tired of the same environment. Tired of waiting. Tired of being tired.

I thought I was standing in faith, but I was actually standing in desire. And my flesh was speaking louder than His still, small voice.

I believed God was saying "yes," but what I was hearing was filtered through my own urgency. What I was actually doing was trying to get God to bless my plan, not surrendering to His.

"Not all good things are God things. And not all open doors are doors He wants you to walk through."

God's Gentle Realignment

Even in my disappointment, God didn't scold me. He let me feel it. Let me cry it out.
Let me pout and journal and sulk like a child who didn't get their way. But the whole time, He stayed close.

"As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him." – Psalm 103:13

It reminded me of my son when he's upset with me, I let him vent but within the safety of my love. No judgment. Just space to process. That's what God did for me. And in that space, I realised: I was trying to control the narrative. Trying to rush God. Trying to turn a maybe into a yes by sheer willpower. 

God gently reminded me:

• "My sheep know my voice…" – John 10:27
• "The blessing of the Lord makes one rich, and He adds no sorrow with it." – Proverbs 10:22

If what you're pursuing brings more anxiety than peace, chances are it's not Him. His voice is usually followed by peace, clarity, and joy—even in uncertainty. I had to return to His nature. His consistency. His pattern in my life. He's never rushed. Never chaotic. Never careless with my heart.

"God's will done God's way will never lack God's peace."

I thought I had surrendered… but this experience showed me I was still clinging in some areas. God had to peel my fingers off the steering wheel again. Now? I've placed each day back into His hands. I'm not worrying about tomorrow. I'm present. I'm in the Word. I've even told God:

"If I start veering off track again—please snatch me back QUICK. Like don't even let me finish the thought, Holy Spirit drag me if you need to."

Because wasting time outside of God's will is too costly.

Final Sips of Truth

Walking with God isn't always soft lighting and highlight reels.

• It's surrender.
• It's dying to self.
• It's correction, course changes, and getting your ego checked (lovingly).

But His grace is always there.
His mercy is new every morning.
And His plans? Still good even when you can't see it yet.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. – Isaiah 55:8

A Note to You, Sis (or Bro 👀)

If you're in a place of waiting, confusion, or disappointment—know that God sees you. And He's not punishing you. He's preparing you. What feels like rejection may actually be protection and redirection.

• Hold on.
• Refocus.
• Release what you thought it would be.
• And trust that what's coming will be exceedingly, abundantly above all you could ask or think.

"At the appointed time it will happen. And when it does it will be suddenly, and without sorrow".

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Devotional: Surrendering Not Striving